Order and Anarchy

Heck…I got over with the hourly exams today to again get a lease of life for yet another month. In this period, I ended up with successfully messing up with my Investment Banking and Marketing Management papers . So out of six, there are strong chances of me getting flunked in atleast two papers – well, not atleast, but just two . And being a ‘good’ citizen belonging to the proud Pakistani nation, I wouldn’t blame myself for it entirely. i said I wouldn’t blame myself entirely; that means that I do blame myself a bit .

The Investment Banking teacher loses her bearings a good lot of times during class sessions and the Marketing Management teacher from Japan delivers some really insightful lectures in the ‘Anglo – Japanese’ language. Yes, that’s my way of referring to a mix of English and Japanese. Well, you know how a Japanese would speak English in a Japanese accent!!

So there it goes…...a collective effort on the part of the instructor and myself towards the possibility of me getting a distinguished failure grade inthese hourly exams. I should have made more efforts to sort things out and study. Afterall, a number of my classmates did exactly that. But Marketing? I’m really allergic to it. Couldn’t marketing have been a different piece of a sweeter cake? Oh yes, it should have been that way. Still, I wish myself the best of luck for future exams .

Semester exams done with today, I feel somewhat relieved. Classfellows oganized a lunch at Purple Haze after the paper but I didn’t feel like going, so I took my way to home. Almost half the class was willing to go.

I returned to home, had my lunch and took time to rest. I was thinking regarding my performance in the exams, the marks I was getting and about the feeling that my marks were inadequate. This is the first time in my life when I’ve felt that getting 85 or 86 marks ot of 100 is inadequate. One would feel how thankless I am by not being content. But that’s the way this system works. It makes pupils to literally die for one – tenth of a mark.

I feel that this system of masuring GPA emphasizes too much on getting more and more marks by any means. Although it pomotes competition and keeps the students on their toes, it also creates undue pressures on the students’ psychology. Coupled with this, callous attitude from teachers regarding proper teaching cmpounds problems for students.